Many other expressions of my SELF
have been speaking through my Sue Lie self.
However, recently I have been
feeling a need to speak through the very human I just wrote about releasing.
I will call these messages “Checking
In” because the best way for me to check
in with my SELF is to write and share.
Also, I feel a need to share my
experience because I know that many of you are having similar experiences and may
want to share them in the comments section.
It is important that we “come out”
as our true SELF, at least with the people who can take it.
I have found that my inner SELF lets
me know if some one is a person who can
handle that information.
I am so happy that I took the
Arcturian’s advice long ago to start a website.
Because of that I can hear from
people all over the world, as I not hearing from people in my area.
You may think that “beach town
California” would be a place where we can fully “come out.”
However most people have learned to keep it to themselves or be judged.
Hence, I offer this safe place for
others, and myself, to talk about how the higher light is messing with, and
improving, our lives.
I will start by saying that this
October has been, well it has been—WOW!
So much was happening SO fast that I
could not even stop to process it until now on November 4.
Personally, I have too many up close and personal meetings with far
too many expressions of my, what should I call them?
Should I say my wounded ego, my dark
side or my lower consciousness?
I think that the best, and least
self-judgmental way, to name it is “my 3D coping mechanisms.”
These coping mechanisms of
impatience, overworking, worry, and the need to hide out came mostly from
learning that if I wanted anything I would have to work hard and long to get it.
For one thing, it was a truth for
much of my life, especially since I am a woman born in 1946.
Women were the power behind—husband, boss, family, men etc.
Therefore, we had to work harder and
do more.
However, now, with the energies
being this intense and this fast, working harder is much like running in deep
mud.
Before, our success was based on
what we did more than who we were.
Also, we had to force our reality into existence by our will-power and long
striving.
NOW our reality can no longer be forced in any manner.
For one thing, the process of our
transmutation is so very exhausting that we can no longer force our self to do
or feel anything.
If and when we try to do so, we are
overwhelmed by intense exhaustion, dizziness, loss of short-term memory,
blinking out of time, and feeling the demands of our transmuting body.
No longer can we skip sleep, eat
poorly or have NO time to exercise,
stretch, meditate or be creative.
In fact, time has constantly being revealed as an illusion.
If we are doing a 3D endeavor that
we don’t want to do, we become totally exhausted, confused, impatient and even
angry.
I can actually FEEL my left-brain
hurting from the effort of thinking in a totally third dimensional manner.
On the other hand, when I am doing
something I enjoy, writing, art, listening to music, yoga I can feel movement
in my core.
This movement feels good, like fresh
air inside of me.
However, when I don’t have “time” to
do these things, I feel nervous, anxious, angry or depressed.
Time is now totally relative.
While my multidimensional mind is
being stimulated, time is like a bird flying across a panorama of myriad
possible realities.
I can hold many thoughts at once,
and they all intertwine with each other.
However, while doing mundane 3D
responsibilities, time is like a ball and chain that drags behind me making
everything seem more difficult.
Also, writing about Mytre and
Mytria, Sandy and Jason, the Arcturian and now Mytrian, I am having more
experiences of my various versions of self.
There is a team that lives inside of
me, and each member of that team represents a different frequency of my SELF.
However, the moment I get lost in
ego, 3D thinking and my myriad coping mechanisms for physical life, Sue Lie is
the only survivor.
And BOY, can she “work hard.” And
what a wonderful martyr she can be that she works sooooo hard.
Then the victim kicks in and she/I
feel sorry for myself.
Of course, fatigue, sorrow,
confusion, depression kick in then.
They did a lot of kicking in this
month, but were countered with some REALLY amazing meditations, creative ideas,
wonderful moments etc. etc.
Yes, ascension is a ride on a roller
coaster.
You go up into the Sun, get your
wings too hot, then fall down to earth and crash.
We ARE the Phoenix Bird individually
and collectively.
In case the term is new to you,
there is a Phoenix Bird for every era.
This grand expression of our SELF
flies high and oversees our life from a higher perspective.
Then, as the era comes to an end,
that Phoenix Bird must surrender itself to the Great Mother so that another my
be the overseer of life.
It is at this point that the Phoenix
nosedives down into the Earth and crashes into Gaia in a blaze of light.
For a while, there is only the ashes
of that which is over.
Then, slowly and carefully, our
small beak peaks up through the ashes to begin the long, challenging process of
re-birth.
This is where we are now.
The fire is over.
Many of the ashes have been blown
away by the winds of change, and we
are peaking out through the remaining ashes of what is now ending to find that
which is beginning.
However, this cycle is very special
for what is ending is time and what is beginning is the NOW.
We are emerging into a world in
which everything that we have known as real is being exposed as an illusion.
Also, everything that we have known
as impossible is being revealed as the Truth.
We are no longer where or who we
have been for myriad incarnation, but we are not yet where or who we are
becoming.
If that is not enough, with the
closing of time we are discovering
that we have always been who we are becoming.
So why are we having such difficulty
with our transition?
If we deny our difficulty we are
denying our own inner truth.
However, can we accept our inner
conflict without judging our self?
Can we accept our transition without
judging others?
One of the main concerns about being
a Phoenix Bird is that we must first and foremost respond to our inner call.
Since we perceive reality from a
higher perspective we can see how the matrix is unraveling while most of the
population is still deeply entrenched in third-dimensional illusion.
Hence, we must “go where no ONE has
gone before,” with only our inner SELF and a few trusted comrades to assist us.
The Arcturians have been telling me
that we, the awakened humans, are the Portal Openers.
We open our portals by using our
physical bodies as step-down transformers.
Hence, we are NOW accepting the
higher frequencies of light in through our pineal gland, pull it down through
our chakras.
In each chakra we transmute our
bodies via ach nerve plexus, endocrine gland and primary organ to share a
grounded version of this light with Gaia.
Hence, as we “crash” into the
Mother, we surrender our shell to be transmuted by the some/total of the
energies that Gaia has been collecting in Her core from all the other open
portals.
Once we realize that we are NOT
having a problem and that we ARE portals into the NOW, we can better relax into
our process.
Then we can relax into the ever
increasing knowing within our core.
Now that I have shared the
challenges, I would like to also share that there is a new me, a higher
resonance, an inner sweetness that comes when I relax enough to surrender into
the NOW.
It is easy for me to complain about
that which is completing, but it takes a special courage to share that which is
developing.
Why is it easy to talk about what is
wrong and difficult to talk about what is right?
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